did you know today is a Dream Day?

I was looking for the date today on my home's calendar and on it was two small words on the date box. - Dream Day - Odd coincidence. I'm guessing it's some sort of special day in a country, which is currently unknown to me.

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There were news saying that last night or rather this morning, at around 12.3oam, we would be able to see Mars *yes, the planet..NOT the snack bar* in the dim sky. So my brothers and I waited for it while playing card to pass the time. And SURPRISE, SURPRISE we DIDN'T see anything.

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Through everything, the farewells + going to the airport + another farewell + flying + etc, I couldn't feel ANYTHING. Like all my emotions have mixed up so much that I was numb. Didn't like it but couldn't do anything about it either. SIGH...

Guess I'll just wait for ONE emotion to dominate soon.

Let the new journey begin. =)

- B -

goodbyes...

"Farewells are often not pleasant,

but it's best if we do it with a positive attitude."

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Has been getting A LOOOT of advices recently

and it's been the SAME ones REPEATEDLY.

Tho the repetition is making me BLUE and GREEN,

I took it in quietly with uncountable/systematic nods

cuz I don't want to be mean.

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Packing is mostly done. It was more of a HEADBODYACHE than I thought. Thanks to MYSELF. I have NO HABIT of doing yearly cleanings and a HABIT collecting too much unnecessary stuffs. Also I couldn't bear throwing away or recycling stuffs that I don't need or use.

I have learnt my lesson.

Hopefully I won't forget.

- B -

PC fair...

It's that time of the year again!

Squeezing yourselves through the massive crowd to get a good bargain for techs at the convention halls in KLCC.

Got quite a lot of stuffs for a good price.

It made me H-A-P-P-Y~

=)

- B -

humans are so vulnerable..

Humans get sick, hurt, and die easily.

This is way too easy to prove.

My dad's parents owns a shop which has a squatting? toilet.

A couple of days ago, my grandma slipped and fell on the toilet floor on her bump. Thank God she didn't break any bones or has major injuries but her nerves seems to be affected quite badly. It was painful for her even when she is sitting.

After hearing about the news, my dad and I went back to Sarawak for a visit to check up on her and also as a farewell visit to my grandparents from both sides of the family. It was only a short 2day1night trip.

During the visit, we got grandma a support? stick. Those four-legged stick that we often see in hospitals for the weak or old.

Seeing how slow my grandma moves even with the support of the stick was not a comfortable sight. It gave me a strong reminder of how weak humans get after time passes. Tho it is probably too early for me to have fears of growing old but the time that is furiously running without mercy is a good excuse for me to react that way.

I fear growing old and weak more than a sudden death.

That's how I feel now.

- B -

halfway there...

Countdown..21 days left...

Though it still hasn't hit me. I know that I'm halfway there.

Since December 2009, I've been planning for the next step. I did a step by step which has led me so near to the goal I've been dreaming for.

Plan conclusion:

1. Interest > Interior Design

2. Country of my choice > Canada

3. Selection of acceptances > Georgian College

4. Study Permit > Done

5. Residence > In Progress

For now, residence is the biggest question mark. I'm still on the waiting list for the campus residence. It doesn't sound too good but I'm sure it'll be answered soon enough.

I know I couldn't have gone far if I had to do every thing by myself without guidance. Most parent would help their children to plan everything out for them. Of course, mine was different. They will never spoon feed me everything. Which is healthy for me. Though it has been tough but my parents kept pushing me in their own way. Though I was annoyed or sometimes pissed when they criticize, lecture, and scold me. I knew I needed it. It's in my nature to be laid back and lazy. lol

Thanks to them I was able to get to this point on my own two feet. Though that doesn't mean they don't tick me off. It's just that I understand why they have to do what they need to.

Tho I don't hear "I love you" from them but I got the silent message. I hope you got my silent message too, "I'm sorry (for all the headaches, worries, and pain I caused) but I love you too"

- B -